On Being Visibly Fat

Here are some things you and I already know about me:- I am a dancer in the CinCity Shakers.- I look really cute in a hot pink bob.- I am fat (note for new readers. fat is a neutral descriptor in this case. not an insult). See. Pink bob... Adorable. And some things...

Keeping Pace

No matter what you believe, you probably believe you have a purpose.  Either because you've discovered it and you can feel it running through your veins like electricity in the moments you get to plug into it... or because you haven't yet and you can feel the gaping...

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Sacrificing Santa

Over the last six months or so two, somewhat contrasting, scenes have been on repeat in my household. Scene 1: Opens with some variation of the line "Momma, is Santa real?" starting at a place that's relatively benign and when my response of "what do you think?" wore...

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Olives, Rest, & Peace

This may require some stretching, but we're going to try it anyway.  Stretching often feels good and is good for you too! I recently read something about Olives being an "alternate bearing crop" which means they don't produce fruit every year.  The produce, they rest,...

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Softening

In nature, softening is a precursor to absolute purpose. The spring earth softens as it thaws, aided by warm rain, before it receives the seeds of newly budding trees. The summer fruit softens on the vine, sending out a sweet scent inviting consumption whether by...

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Give Up: Holding On

Every life story has the moment (or momentS depending on the tragedy level of the cards you were dealt) where everything completely falls apart...  Your husband gets sick (and I'm not talking man-cold although we know how devastating that can be), you lose your job,...

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Go Ahead and Give Up

If I was a literary figure my tragic flaw would be that I give up too easily.  Hopefully without sounding too full of myself I have to tell you that for most of my life I've had enough things come easily to me that I haven't had to work hard for much (I know... I...

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Flying High, Falling Fast

Lately I've been having a fair amount of those "it's all worth it" parenting moments.  Keep in mind (I'm talking to those of you who still haven't decided whether to take the plunge), it took six years to get here.  Sure, there were a few before, but not until now do...

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Softening

In nature, softening is a precursor to absolute purpose. The spring earth softens as it thaws, aided by warm rain, before it receives the seeds of newly budding trees. The summer fruit softens on the vine, sending out a sweet scent inviting consumption whether by...

being “responsible”

My beloved told me (shortly after we met) that a psychic she saw (shortly before we met) predicted that she would meet her soul mate in the form of me (my description per the psychic: younger than her, has a child, VERY responsible). Ta-daa!  Here I am!  It's all...

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love is all around…

this post has absolutely nothing to do with valentine's day.  just want to make that clear.  i know tomorrow is valentine's day and that's important to folks, but this is just a delightful coincidence.  also to be clear, i am not "anti-valentine's day" nor do i insist...

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communication fraud

I think of myself as a good communicator...  I think HIGHLY of myself because I think of myself as a good communicator.  Over the last several days it has occurred to me that I am great in situations with other people who are also good communicators.  Trying to...

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being “the best”

I had my first writing class this evening and I'm finding myself in this familiar place afterward... one that seems to make up much of what I choose to do lately: I don't want to, but I am willing.  I don't want to face all of the emotions and triggers that show up in...

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conflict avoidance is going to kill me… literally

This afternoon I was happily doing some work from my home computer on my fancy, new virtual network connection when I got a call from my therapist.  It was about 2:15, 45 minutes before what I thought was our scheduled appointment time and I realized as soon as I saw...

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